Waiting game or ghosted?

 July 9th

Our healthcare system is broken. Being ghosted by doctors is truly frustrating. I was called by Mass General back in early June to go over the next steps and set up a date for an evaluation as well as meet with the adult heart failure team over there as well. I was told I’d receive a call the next day. So I waited, I gave it a week, you know because doctors are very busy. Then I called the office, and his NP, weeks go by many messages left, nothing… I requested an appointment online through my chart… still nothing. So I wait, and wait some more as I get weaker day by day.

This definitely has taken an emotional toll on me, when people ask what’s next I fear, I truly don’t know. My light is dimming day by day, the fear of not seeing family or friends again sets in, the anxiety is there, unfortunately all I know how to do is disassociate from reality. 

I still have hope for now, but man this shit is tough. 



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  1. Emily SprecherJuly 22, 2025 at 12:13 PM

    That’s so, so frustrating. I’m sorry the system is failing you Melly. Thinking of you all the time. You’ve always been a tough cookie and know you’ll get through this!! 💙

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